A little bit of A.D.D. in this post.

I've always longed to have the lifestyle of a rockstar but at the same time have one of like a nomad. I've loved the thought of waking up somewhere different everyday, and just going with it. But like I said the only way you can truly do that is by being a rockstar, but there is so much corruption within it, that it is not even worth it. I mean any deadline on creativity affects how good any sort of work will be. Books, Movies, Music, etc. And that seems to be all the music business as with any business cares about. Meeting deadlines, but you would figure that the people who are within the industry would know enough about music to realize the thought of "quantity over quality" or really the way capitalist society works "quantity with quality within a timeframe" hurts it. Songs take time to write. Some take only a few minutes to write, but others can take ages. The ones that take forever are usually the ones that are the testements to our culture. Of course, if Axl Rose ever releases Chinese Democracy I don't expect too much. I'm starting to think that really his whole point on Chinese Democracy is to wait until that oxymoron becomes a reality. Sorry Axl, you'll probably be dead by the time China stops being communist and stops diplomatically and militarily bullying Taiwan and Tibet. Anyway, I'm way off topic again, back to what I was saying. I love the idea of just being able to let things flow. Just not caring... we always look down upon people who don't care, and don't fit within this capitalistic style of government. Really I think the best form of government would be to mix the both. Allow everybody to do what they want to do, but make sure in some ways people are paid the same. Capitalism and the arts just do not mix. It makes everything generic to what the corporations think the masses want to hear. But really, all it does is tire the masses of hearing the same shit over and over and they look for something new. Why do you think Indie artists have been going up so fast? Why do you think more and more people are listening to World Music? I think some of them probably have the same openness like me where we look to become cultured and enjoy listening to everything to draw into our own creativity, but even then the industry finds ways to mess that up. How? They try to sign the indie artists and give them the deadlines and all the other bullshit and the fans consider them to "sell out".

Maybe they are selling out, I don't like to think of it like that though. I think of it as them trying to make a living, in a society which creativity is looked down upon. The government looks down on it, corporations look down on it, yet the people as humans have a natural urge to have creativity. People in power or having authority always long for conformity so they can ensure security and hope people buy into anything. People living within the domain want their creativity so they can have expression, have some sort of philosophical value in their minds. I always think of me being a famous musician or a philosopher so I can have some sort of true value in this world. To me working in some office space for numerous years so I can feed a family is not doing shit to the world. It helps some company make more money or have something balanced. What difference is that going to make 10 years from now? Shit that company may be long gone by then. Look at literature, paintings, sculptures, architecture, music, etc. it is all still around, and to this day we all still talk about books that were written thousands of years ago, pyramids of giza, Beethoven, Sistine Chapel, Mona Lisa, Sculpture of David, etc. In 50 years no one will remember Enron, because Enron never had true value in our world's future. Development of the mind is the world's future.

Now granted we will always need somebody to make food, somebody to protect our borders, somebody to transport, and somebody to make sure our phones, electricity, water, and cable are up and running. There is no way around that, we'll always need farmers, lumberjacks, and other jobs. The thing is though, as much as we need them, we need the arts as well. Without the arts we lose our creativity. Without the creativity and curiousity we lose the need to advance to make things better. We also lose further enhancing our minds, which I think most have noticed that our world has gotten dumber. Without that everything comes to a complete halt, and problems never go unsolved. Lets just lose creativity and stick to protocol. Ok in order to make a protocol you have to CREATE one. You get what I am saying?

Anyway went off topic again. Pretty much this is a round-about way of saying the following:

I don't want to be a capitalist slave, but at the same time I see the problems with it's counterparts. Everybody wants it all to be black & white, instead of gray, when in all reality the solution is within the gray. As much as I want to be a musician or a songwriter or a journalist, chances are I probably won't because a capitalist society does not embrace such things as much as things that benefit the country temporarily. While I can be whatever I "want" to be because it is the American Dream... that is all it is though, a dream. It only becomes a reality if you are the absolute best at it and in a country of over 300 million people that is quite a feat to achieve seeing that there is a lack of such jobs, and greed as well as laws to promote the best of the capitalist system prevents other companies from being able to start up their own things without having to take all this time and effort to even last... that is if they can. Then there's the whole thing where if you try to stray from the norm, you get looked down upon, and in some cases, bullshit laws in the name of security prevent us from doing some things we truly want to do. I don't mean anything by means of dropping a bomb or murder, or anything of the sort, obviously we need to secure ourselves, but we all go to far because of some asshole wanting their way in a city, state or the whole nation.

There needs to be a change, soon.